I Continued to Grow

My interest sharing this article is based on my personal ongoing request for mercy and closure.

I have vivid memories of my childhood existence .

My memories of the state of Tennessee placing me hours away from my home town to live among the privileged and gifted students at the Tennessee Preparatory School.

Despite my determination to return home. Despite my mothers warning that I would not stay there just as I wouldn't anywhere else the courts decided to be my best interest .

I remember my last day there was the day I was sent to see the dentist at an on campus building I was unaware existed.

I had already spent numerous nights in the guardhouse after many failed midnight attempts to escape from my captivity and make my way home..

The property was larger than I was aware of.

My last memory of the school was the trip to the on campus dentist's office .

I was pointed out one of the front doors of the main school building down a sidewalk that led to the dentist's office.

On the short walk I could feel the eyes watch me from behind till I was in the door.

When I was released from the torture of the dentist visit ...

I walked out the same door and no one was waiting for me......

No gates or barbwire fences...

So I took the sidewalk leading to the busy street in a big city where I had no idea of how to get out of site or which way to go...

I was mad about the white pants covered with red blue and yellow fishes .

This particular memory is a major trigger pointing toward the "Branded" .. the poor state wards were given the same matching outfits that added humiliation to the dehumanized environment within the elites of entitled social hierarchy of their family's wealth and still I endured and overcame..

The danger of being a young girl in a mans world was lesson that I had associated with my traumatic adulthood experiences and my childlike logic that if I can just make it back home...

No one will take me farther away ...

. Before the sunset I was left in the woods off a dirt road ..

Where once again..

GOD REACHED FOR ME...